Saturday, January 21, 2012
I am trying to learn how to embrace our own beauty and tell those who tell you different are even more self conscious about them self. I have a friend who models . . . he is the most self conscious person I have met. I am realizing that constant tracking of food, taking hours to do your makeup is not worth it. I love who I am naturally and the man I want to attract will love me for it. You have to love yourself before anyone else can truly love you.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
In English we are currently doing a chapter about new technology and it's effect on the world good and bad. I'm having a hard time grasping the ideas our paranoid teacher is trying to teach. Technology already exists that can read minds with an MRI scanner. His big discussion question is that of freedom vs. protection. In order to be safe how much freedom are willing to give up. Ever since the horrific date of 9-1-1 everyone you don't know could be a terrorist. What happen to God's message of Jesus walking along the "lowlifes" and if you don't remember he pretty much grew up in the ghetto so why are we so scared of our own shadow??? As a follower we are supposed to trust him completely. Yet with this whole government control struggle I have a hard time piecing through the layers of deception to truly see what God wants me to see and know. Power is knowledge right?? So why is the government hiding so much in order to know everything about us? With this unit I am realizing how blissfully nieve I have been about my amount of privacy. As a human one of the greatest things I treasure is my alone time with God. I guess it is kind of like how God is always watching and knowing what you are doing. Yet, he does this to help you with his greatest all knowing grace. When a human flaud and all try to take this power as well. Glitches and self-power will end up leading to corruption. Haven't learn from history too much human power in one area of control always ends up bad?
Monday, January 16, 2012
Lately I have fallen in love with the artist Priscilla Ahn. My favorite song is called dream. I connect with her yearning to hold on to her child dreams and struggling to take the dreams and make then her life. Her voice speaks the truth of how I feel right now but at the same time at the end of the song she switches form "I have a dream" to "I had a dream". Which troubles me, to me children are essence of God's joy and love in life. The ability to dream and think of the most craziest ideas is what were supposed to always do. Age should not dictate your mind's capacity. People say the wisest are the oldest because the observe and see the little things . . . I think the youngest are the happiest because they see all the things we miss therefore the wisest. They know exactly who they are. Whenever I am with kids I have no doubt God smiles through each of their little faces. He teaches me more through them the anyone else. Especially my little niece lets call her Grace. Grace will hear a commercial on television with music and breaks out in a dance moving with the beat with little stomps, head sways, and arms wiggle. She giggles softly to herself without a care in the world. When she sleeps she clutches her Elmo doll with this look of absolute peace. I wish i knew what she did. I constantly hear how everyone wants there kids to reach certain goals (crawling, hoping, saying the alphabet) by a specific time or else they are behind. That does not ever end. High School is constantly pushing the students to never sleep constantly working. Yet for what? To reach those dreams we made when we were little. Everyone is unique yet we are pushed to conform into the teaching standards. I see how the teachers are frustrated with having to do so but they have to. I am learning to be the child I was to smile through God and dance just because.